So I got this invitation to like a hardcore, leave-consent-at-the-door kink party and I want to go but I don't know if I'm ready? So would you be open to trying again, with the thing we tried when I was still all bruised up but I had to stop?
Also I've been truth serumed and I just realized it's finder day, so you can't hold it against me if I die before we can do it
It's in a week. It lasts three days, I think? I'm not gonna go the whole three days. But you sign a waiver that you understand that by entering you're consenting to anything that anyone wants to do to you potentially including murder. There's a way to mark whether you want to be mostly a sadist or mostly a masochist or both
Oh god you haven't even heard about the finder. Later today the city is gonna post essentially ads for everyone in the program so you can find partners. I won't have one this month hopefully but most people do most months
I got a citation and the truth serum is part of my realignment
Do you want to meet up for the second try tomorrow? Same place maybe?
I've heard about it, vaguely, but not in much detail. Are the advertisements only for those who aren't contracted or are they for everyone?
What was your citation for?
Yes, that would be perfect. Though I am curious to know how violent you wish me to be, in that case, or should we start roughly where we left off last time?
[ He wonders who Quentin has in mind when he says 'people' but also decides that asking right now wouldn't be... in good faith. He can figure it out. Or he won't, and he'll miss this party in particular. Either way it'll be fine. ]
Interesting.
Have you told Steven Grant about this?
[ Too many Steves, Stephens, Stevens in this place. ]
When my contract with Hope runs out I'm gonna ask if he wants to contract and it'll probably come up then. When I can filter what I say. We'll see how that goes
Kinda. Like not enough that you should if you don't care. But I feel like you could ask things I want to answer
Truth serum is 95% shitty and 5% forces me to say what I mean without all the bullshit I normally have to pad it with and that has advantages
Caitlin's mentioned you and I would be completely shocked if she doesn't have an invitation. And if her +1 is taken she's been here longer than me so she might have a better idea of who else to ask
[It's not. But it's the closest he can get, when he can't just lie and say he knows.]
I hope you go
Partly because it's you and I'm unreasonably hot for you but also partly because I'm hoping the ratio of "hard but reasonable sadists" to "murderers" skews toward the former and I feel like that's the category you're in.
[Quentin has definitely also killed people -- there's a difference between getting into the middle of conflicts where someone has to die and like sexually murdering people.]
Maybe we'll also hang out there, then. Assuming the pregaming goes well
We're definitely becoming friends. We're not super close or bonded yet because we don't know each other that well yet. But we're at least a little bonded after that first cnc shitshow and we're getting closer. So yeah, we're friends.
I need that guy to use some longer fucking sentences with me. We've sort of managed to work it out recently but oh my god. For a good while I was like no, it's my fault, I just can't understand him because my brain is broken and he's communicating perfectly clearly, but no I can more or less understand every other person I'm fucking. The problem is him. He's just a cryptic asshole for no fucking reason. Like you could ask him if he has milk and he'd be like idk do I or like why don't you come find out.
[PHEW apparently he's had some thoughts building up.] That said, when I finally just confronted him and was like I don't even know if you like me, I need you to communicate better if we're gonna be friends, he seemed receptive. He told me I wasn't broken and my brain being weird isn't my fault, people should treat me with compassion. He said it would be okay if I feel confused about him to just ask where we're at. So as crazy as it sounds, I don't think he's an obnoxious asshole on purpose.
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Also I've been truth serumed and I just realized it's finder day, so you can't hold it against me if I die before we can do it
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Also what is finder day? Why did you get truth serumed?
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Oh god you haven't even heard about the finder. Later today the city is gonna post essentially ads for everyone in the program so you can find partners. I won't have one this month hopefully but most people do most months
I got a citation and the truth serum is part of my realignment
Do you want to meet up for the second try tomorrow? Same place maybe?
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I've heard about it, vaguely, but not in much detail. Are the advertisements only for those who aren't contracted or are they for everyone?
What was your citation for?
Yes, that would be perfect. Though I am curious to know how violent you wish me to be, in that case, or should we start roughly where we left off last time?
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Everyone. They highlight people who don't have a contract though
I slept over too many times with Steven Grant. I might be in love with him [listen. you know he's on truth serum, you asked for this]
Where we left off would be good, I think. The level of force we were at would be a good test of whether I'm ready
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Interesting.
Have you told Steven Grant about this?
[ Too many Steves, Stephens, Stevens in this place. ]
Alright. Same safewords are good?
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Same safewords yep
You can abuse the truth serum to ask me stuff if you want I did basically present myself
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I know I can; but do you want me to?
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Kinda. Like not enough that you should if you don't care. But I feel like you could ask things I want to answer
Truth serum is 95% shitty and 5% forces me to say what I mean without all the bullshit I normally have to pad it with and that has advantages
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I do care, I simply don't wish to... overstep.
When you said that people I know probably have an invitation, who were you thinking of? Because I know a lot of people, at this point.
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Caitlin's mentioned you and I would be completely shocked if she doesn't have an invitation. And if her +1 is taken she's been here longer than me so she might have a better idea of who else to ask
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[ Also because, perhaps, the arc of the universe doesn't seem too inclined to provide it to him. ]
Should I ask her, or wait for her to bring it up?
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I can ask her for you if you want but I don't think she'd mind you asking her. I don't know if she'd bring it up on her own
[He knows about Cait's desires, but he also knows she doesn't necessarily speak of them easily.]
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[ He knows it's not the same as believing it's true, but here we are. ]
Most likely I can manage to bring it up.
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I hope you go
Partly because it's you and I'm unreasonably hot for you but also partly because I'm hoping the ratio of "hard but reasonable sadists" to "murderers" skews toward the former and I feel like that's the category you're in.
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[ Has he murdered people before? Yes. Is he going to offer up details on the hows and whys of all that right now? Definitely not. ]
I am interested in attending. For a variety of reasons.
] Including but not limited to "looking out for his friends(??)" and "assessing the threat level of other people who would attend the same party" ]
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Maybe we'll also hang out there, then. Assuming the pregaming goes well
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Is there anything else you wanna ask while you have me?
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I imagine we are, but. I have not had many.
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I have another question: what are your thoughts on Stephen Strange?
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[PHEW apparently he's had some thoughts building up.] That said, when I finally just confronted him and was like I don't even know if you like me, I need you to communicate better if we're gonna be friends, he seemed receptive. He told me I wasn't broken and my brain being weird isn't my fault, people should treat me with compassion. He said it would be okay if I feel confused about him to just ask where we're at. So as crazy as it sounds, I don't think he's an obnoxious asshole on purpose.